writekaryn

Tonight was an amazing night.  A night of revelation and renesannace.  Tonight John and I met with a couple that we, or rather especially I, admire greatly.  John would admire them more if he knew them better.  All our worries were cleared up and we enjoyed telling our story.  At one moment there was a question asked about where I wanted to be.  John and I don’t see ourselves in Redding forever unless you think three years or so is forever.  We’re thinking L.A. as in the city of angles, not of gumbo.  Anyway, I got really passionate…I thought that stuff was pretty dormant.  I’ve tried to build relationship with people down there who are involved with what I want to be involved with, etc, and it has been an uphill climb.  Doors are not opening like I might have wished.  I’m kind of glad right now because my relationship with John is so important and I don’t want anything to distract from our discovering one another and our great love for each other.  I adore him.  He is everything a man should be.  Anyway, I came alive in a new way talking about going down to southern California.  I guess I am pretty passionate about that dream.. It is definitely real, but maybe not ripe.  That’s good.  Give it some time.  We’ll see what happens.