Things have changed since my last post. That guy and I hung out the next night and had a ton of fun. We realized the reasons it wasn’t working weren’t valid and decided to keep getting to know each other. There is a pretty high chance that he will read this, so I better watch what I say. But yeah, for the first time in my life there is someone there who likes me who I also like…and it might work out. I’m not sure, but if I didn’t see potential, then I wouldn’t be spending time getting to know him. Hmmm… what to say. It’s kind of funny because there is an inside joke a freind of mine and I have with Ben from www.regrettablemusic.com where the word potential is synonymous with the word…um.. feces. My friend Becky will frequently say “you are full of prunes” when someone is saying something ridiculous instead of saying “you are full of …poop.” Ben heard her say that and laughed and asked for an explaination. If a person is full of prunes, something that keeps you regular, than that person is full of potential…poop. So Ben decided that he would use that…say that something is full of potential instead of full of crap. And he did recently on the previously mentioned site. I don’t think my relationship with this guy…shall we call him…”John,” is full of crap when I say potential. I mean it literally. Potential according to Websters is: existing in possibility : capable of development into actuality. What this means is that John is flipping awesome. At least so far.
I am a unique woman, have a lot of very specific needs and wants when it comes to romance, that thing that often leads to choosing someone to spend a lifetime with. I need someone with whom I can share my passions: God and love and spirituality, the arts, and understanding relationships and how people tick. John is very spiritual without being obtuse. He is kind, loving and strong. He values communication and freedom and faithfulness. He values purity and honesty. He loves the arts, especially music, which I think is…um…for lack of better word…hot. And most importantly, I am safe with him because he cares about me. I know he thinks I am attractive, but beyond that, he is a true friend. He not only can handle and appreciate who I am, it is meaningful and valuable to him. We are just friends for now. We haven’t been dating and we have been focusing on getting to know each other and building a friendship. Honestly it is super surreal. I can’t believe this is happening. After being so single for so long, all of a sudden here is this amazing man showering me with so much goodness. Only time will tell, but we are committed to doing things the right way, no matter where it all leads. And we are building trust.
And so far, he’s a lot of fun. Ahhhhh!!!!!!! It kind of freaks me out a little, and it is hard to stop thinking about him and all that is happening. I keep trying to be open to good advice and to realize that I don’t know it all. But it is nice to put into practice a lot of the relationship skills I have been trying to learn over the years. I am hoping that it is paying off.
Anyway, he’s a good man. And you should be happy for me. Or for him, depending on how you look at it. I’ll update you if things get more serious. But for now, it’s just new and fun.