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Today we went to Jamba Juice after church.  The music was perky as usual and John and I were doing dumb dances and dumb faces…not like horribly obnoxious in the middle of the room, but a little at the register and a little sitting at the table.  He would sing with the songs.  It was pretty ridiculous and I started laughing so hard.  I am not sure if it was because it was so funny or so embarrassing…either way it was so much fun.  I loved it.  I love seeing new sides of him come out.  I called him this morning before he picked me up from church to let him know I was taking a fashion risk today and to warn him.  I wore dark gray calf-length cuffed trousers, a flowy gray shirt with 3/4 sleeves and a silver woven belt around it to sort of give definition to the waist.  I wore silver jewelry and silver/pewter shoes with bright silver socks.  It took some getting used to for me, but then I finally realized it was hot, wore it with confidence and he liked it.  I was feeling insecure a lot this morning and off and on the last few days.  I keep getting more and more aware of how handsome he is, and I start noticing my flaws more and more and it saps my confidence.  The message at church today was all about that, about valuing ourselves.  I might need to purchase it.  It was spoken by Larry Randolph.  I got really good prayer afterward which pretty much broke off the insecurity and I enjoyed my time with John a lot.  He is so loving to me.  I really value that about him.  We talked to Danny Silk, the marriage and family counselor/pastor at our church after service for a few moments and it scared me.  I sort of doubted he thought we had what it takes.  But I reconnected with God and felt his encouragement and approval and that helped a lot.  Last night I hung out with the Linnell’s, John’s dad Bruce and step mom Sandra and John’s two ten year old brothers and Sandra’s mother.  It was great.  We had Thai and laughed and hung out.  It was fun and casual and I enjoyed it a lot.  They seem pretty happy with me.  This is the first time their son has had a girlfriend, and I think they’re pretty happy for him.

Well I guess that’s it.  Just life and love and liberty and happiness.